what I feel is abandonment and isolation
But you will never know that
Cause you are worried about other
people hurting me
Not realizing you hurting me the most
Not giving me what i need the most
A mother love
That why me and Simone clicked so well
You will never know that i hated coming home to that blasted home
That why i come home at 5 instead 4:30
I rather be with my misguided friends
Then come home to your mother love
I realized a perfect mother love doesn't exist
There will always a crack in a mother love
You claimed that tough love is the way to go
But have you thought about how it hurts me
How i can't trust you with my most inner fears and secrets
Scared of how you are going to laugh and called them petty fears
Ashamed of how happy I'm with tylique
Caused you tell me " what make me happy, will soon bring tears "
I'm upset with my trust issues
I'm afraid of being happy
Me being happy won't make you happy
So all i ever dream of is achieving your mother love
Day in DAY out ......that goal gets father away
I WILL NEVER KNOW A MOTHER LOVE
