I THINK IT"S SO FUNNY HOW LIFE IS SO GOOD AND BAD AT THE SAME TIME
I DON' T THINK HAPPINESS IS MEANT FOR EVERYONE .LIKE REALLY WHO WANTS TO BE HAPPY ALL THE DAMN TIME .A DAY IS SUPPOSED TO BE FULL OF DIFFERENT EMOTIONS,WHETHER PAIN OR JOY.LOVE OR HATE . I WOULD TOTALLY WRITE A BOOK CALLED 365 DAYS OF COMPLETE UTTER EPIC FAILURES .THAT WAS MY LIFE STORY .BUT IM A  NEW PERSON , I HAVE DEVELOPED INTO  THIS HAS A HARDER AND TALLER WALL ,DEFENSE WALL.I WANT TO MARRY A DRUG DEALER . WHY ,YOU ASK ? BECAUSE I WANT TO DISAPPOINT MY FAMILY, JUST SO THEY CAN LEAVE ME ALONE. WE ARE SO A FUCKING FAKE HAPPY WITH SO MANY DAMN CRACKS IN THE SURFACE. ( THE GRASS IS GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE )TYPE OF THING.I HAVE THIS NEW YORK ATTITUDE.ALL I WANT HIS MY DRUG DEALER.SOME ONE FIRM , BUT SECRETLY LOVING.NOT WITH PDA ALL THE DAMN TIME .I DON'T WANT TO TOUCH YOUR SWEATY HANDS. LIKE DUDE GET IT TOGETHER. SOME ONE WHO RUNS THEIR HOUSE, NOT AROUND IT . THE FUNNY PART OF THIS IS THAT I DON'T REALLY WANT TO MARRY THIS PERSON.CAUSE MY BITCH ASS STILL WANTS TO PLEASE HER FAMILY.LIKE CAN YOU BELIEVE ME ?????? I DON'T BELIEVE ME !!!!!!!! I HAD THIS PERFECT GUY NAMED STEVE.NO HE WASN'T A DRUG DEALER . HE WORKED IN A SHOE STORE. THAT WAS LAST TIME I REMEMBER BEING REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY HAPPY. I MEAN I WAS SMILING UNAWARE . THAT NEVER HAPPENS TO ME , I FEEL BAD SMILING WHEN MY LIFE IS REALLY REALLY REALLY CRAPPY IN REAL LIFE. I CAN'T UNDERSTAND IT.PEOPLE ALWAYS TELL YOU TO SMILE WHEN YOU ARE NOT SMILING.BUT I AM BACK TO BEGINNING , WHO THE HELL WANTS TO BE HAPPY ALL THE TIME. THE ANSWER IS ME AND SOME OTHER PEOPLE ( I GUESS )BUT YOU CAN'T BE HAPPY ALL THE TIME UNLESS YOU ARE PERFECT .QUESTION : WHAT THE FUCK IS PERFECTION ????? PLEASE RESPOND TO THIS